Nervous Breakdown

I swear that I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown soon. There's nothing like an almost two year old's(2 years old on May 18)bad antics and behavior to bring you down to your knees.

I'm getting a "bad mommy complex". I feel like I can't do anything right with this kid. She cries and cries and pitches a fit for no apparent reason. All I did was ask her to get out of the car the other day and just that simple request started a 45 minute long crying tantrum. I left her on the ground next to the car and took my things into the house thinking that, surely, she will follow me or ask me to come and get her. NOOOO, she sat on the ground and refused to come in. When I went to pick her up and bring her into the house, she started another crying fit. I just had to leave her in the hallway and walk away.

After 15 minutes of continuous crying, I went to see if she was ready to stop crying. She wasn't ready to stop, of course, so then I was going to leave again. That wasn't the right thing to do. No, not according to Keira. She came and dragged me back and so I thought, ok, I'll try to give her a hug and see if we can kiss and make up. Well, that just started her crying even more. She pushed me away with this "get away from me attitude". Then when I go away, she cries even louder. It's like this. Go away. Come back. Go away. Come back..but don't touch me. YOu can only x inches from me.

This goes back and forth and back and forth for almost everything. Every day. I have no idea what sets her off to a crying fit. I can't seem to do anything right. She's the model child for her father. Now what is up with that?

I searched on the internet today under "My 2 year old is driving me crazy", thinking that maybe I might find others who are in the same situation as me. It was AMAZING. There are tons of mothers in the same situation as me with terrorizing 2 year olds that act in exactly the same way. Some of them have dealt with it for several months now and I am only dealing with her behavior for a week.

I can't believe that a two year old can make me feel so incompetent as a mother. I wonder every day if I'm doing something wrong or if I've done something wrong to make her act this way. Come to find out. It's probably the terrible two's. Oh yeah.

I guess I'll have to dig in my heels and wait this one out. I am the adult. I am the boss. I will prevail. Gulp!....